I have come to a decision of sorts. This nexus has been informed by several factors; chiefly the changing circumstances at the Echoes Group, but mostly how I feel about my need to get in deeper with the subject in order to provide greater personal legitimacy.
I have failed to remain detached from the Group, my inclination to engage at a more and more personal level is something that I have an issue with; to not to do so would, at this stage in my work work with the Group, would mean that I had, in my terms, ‘short-changed them’ – when I know that if I sacrificed other interests, studies, home life etc it would ameliorate some of the inner issues. So I can’t take any more from them as I’m not prepared to give them any more than I do at present. If the Group carries on – which I would say is at best 50/50 at the moment – I am more than happy to volunteer my Tuesday mornings to them. But I won’t commit to more than that, for all sorts of reasons.
This means that I won’t be doing anymore course work with the Echoes Group – certainly in the near term – and I have a few ideas about the next assignment. I am, I have to say, unhappy about this decision as I had hoped to form a body of work within a framework defined by the Group. Maybe I will be able to return to it in the future – I hope so